stir it up, little darling, stir it up

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S3UqvWk8-uw - Thanks Bob and youtube

My head was spinning yesterday for a good part of the day.  I realized it this morning, that he stirred up a LOT of emotions I have been carrying around and since last year.  I suppose part of this was motivating me to push myself harder this year but that isn't always the best way to go about things.

For the past few weeks I was already starting to feel the pre-race butterflies and getting way to amped up this early in the game.  I was starting to feel aches and pains when I really shouldn't be.  I was pushing way too hard at the wrong times, focusing too much on the wrong things and not truly listening to the advice I was given.  I heard them, but I wasn't listening.

I had an appointment yesterday morning and after the treatment he sat down and we talked a lot about what's going on my head right now and what I need to do to make sure I prepare properly.  I have been putting so much pressure on myself for the past year for fear of history repeating itself. I have been driving myself and pushing myself too hard for too long and by doing this, getting myself worked up.   It's time I calm down, settle down and just relax, breath and believe.

So on that note, I took the day off from training yesterday, went and had myself some retail therapy followed by some wine therapy with a great friend.  It was just what I needed when I needed it.  I started making a list of goals for the race this year too, that was my homework. Some are time related and some aren't and I think for me, both are important.  This year is about so much more than just finishing. It's about taking care of unfinished business, getting my medal, getting my title, finisher shirt and hat and let's not forget that tat!  But with all this in mind, it doesn't mean I need to get worked up about it now, not yet, not until it's time.

Every year is going to be different with different lessons.  For now I will enjoy the journey for what it is, what is is for me this year, for this race.  

On the path to the Ironman, the journey is different for everyone. 

Ironman Mont Tremblant Training weekend

My friend and training partner Jules and I ventured to beautiful Mont Tremblant for a weekend full of Ironman training.  We realized on the way there that the one way trip would take as long to drive as we were going to spend o our bikes!

We ventured outside Friday morning rolling into the village around 6 or 7 pm. We unloaded the car and brought our mound of gear up to the hotel room which was more like a condo.  Had some dinner and basically called it a night.

Saturday we were planning on getting a 160 km bike ride in. This would have been two loops of the race course.  We loaded up the car and headed over to the parking lot near transition and got ready to roll.  The loop went pretty well, I was pushing and working to keep up with Jules, I kept in her in sight for most of it.  We headed back towards Montee Ryan and then made the ascend upon"the mountain ".  In total we did 84km.

We were heading out for the second loop when a car passed me yelling something in French, I turned back and didn't we Jules. I stopped and walked back and she was walking her bike towards me. She had crashed, thankfully it wasn't serious and she went down away from traffic instead of into it! Her bike was pretty messed up and wasn't ridable.  I bike over to get help but we ended up taking it into the local shop where they needed to cut the chain and do a tune up.  We realized our big bike  plans were quashed and the universe had other plans for us. Thankfully the bike shop got the repair done and we made alternate plans for Sunday. We decided that we would do the second loop following with a short run and then a swim.

Sunday arrived and we got our bike done, I was struggling a bit physically and mentally but kept reminding myself that this was great practice. Math works wonders when you need to get your head out of the hurt locker.

We got the loop done,another kick ass climb up the mountain and back down. My computer crapped out on me all weekend so I only had cadence working for me which was probably better considering I think I went the fastest I have ever gone on my bike.  

We got back and watched our friends become a 2 time Ironman as they were racing in Austria. It was amazing and brought tears to my eyes. 

Afterwards we headed down to the beach area to get our 3k swim done.  Again, a monkey wrench got thrown into the mix. We got there after 3 to find d out the swim course had already closed. So again we were left to reorganize our plans.  Instead we ended up going  for our 21k training run. We were  laughing when we realized we were basically doing an impromptu half ironman that day.

The run was OK, it took me longer than expected but I just know that I need to get back off my bike asap to buy myself as much time as possible on race day.

All in all it was a great confidence boosting weekend and I know that this year, I will become an Ironman!!!

Training, training and more training

Last week was a rough week training wise. My knees were giving me a hard time during my runs.  Saturday was really tough as my knees just kept buckling over and over.  I forgot how much this happened last winter and that I was getting taped up almost weekly.  It takes a lot out of me mentally when my knees buckle so this past week I went back for more tape to see if that would take care of things. What a difference it made and honestly I don't care if it's just helping mentally! We are keeping an eye on my running form too and it gets checked and corrected when necessary, which is pretty much weekly.

Running this week improved, Thursday was still a rough one but because my nutrition was off and I felt like the gas tank was empty so I struggled. My long run this weekend was much better than last weekend! No buckling, none what so ever!  This made me very happy.

I felt the 18.5km in my legs today on the long ride and next weekend I am for sure getting back to the ride run approach, it makes a difference.

I'm back to strength training twice a week which also makes me feel better knowing I'm getting stronger with every workout.  My swim distances have also started ramping up and I already hit the 3k mark.  I crawled into bed tonight when it was still light out, you know you are training for an ironman when!

Last week our new tri tops came in and as soon as we saw them we agreed that matching shorts were a must.

Post Injection Follow-up

It's been a week since I got my injections and I have to say, the knees are feeling pretty good! It's amazing the difference I can feel within a day or two, walking up and down the stairs is easier and just in general there are less aches and pains, these shots are amazing.

I was pretty much benched last week letting the shots settle in but I did get a few workouts in over the weekend.  Saturday I cranked out 2000m in 40 mins and that felt great! Sunday I didn't have as much wind in my sails but I still managed to knock out a solid swim.  I also ventured out for an easy 45k ride but Mother Nature got cranky and the rain turned me around after 15km so I added about 40 minutes to that on the trainer.

Yesterday I was back at Chiro and I found the sweet spot for my running form. Tonight the trick is remembering how good that felt and what my posture was like when I hit the pavement for my first run.  I met up with a few of the girls for the Masters Swim last night and that was no easy session let me tell you, Drew was definitely making us work but it always feels great after.

It's recovery week this week so it's a little easier overall but it feels great to get back into the full swing of training again, especially with 12 weeks to go, OMG!

Round 2

So the dream team of doctors works fast, I already had my appointment today with the sports MD for the second round of injections.

We doubled up this time and did both knees at once this time now that I'm not a rookie and I know what to expect.  He did the left one first and it was a walk in the park.  Righty on the other hand was a little more stubborn and painful.  He had to work the needle around a bit to get it into just the right place, I'm still cringing as I type this.  I've had a few needles lately and let me tell you, these suckers are the big ones with a lot of fluid getting injected.  I took a few deep breaths and he worked it around and found the sweet spot he was looking for.

It is such a weird feeling, feeling the fluid being injected into my knee.  Afterwards he worked the durolane around just by bending my knees a bit and he mentioned how he can feel the fluid moving around.

The last time I had this done my right leg reacted and it stiffened right up, I was limping around and needed to make an unscheduled stop at the chiro's officer for some relief.  I'm happy to say, as of right now things are feeling pretty good considering.  I'll keep my fingers crossed it stays this way.

I'm back on the bench for the next few days, the Sports MD does a good job of scaring the crap out of me telling me about what can happen should I get an infection.   My other doctor already pared back training for this week in prep of the shots and for after as well to let everything settle into place.  So on that note, I have a couple days off and plan to use them making some new road food snacks and whatever else needs to be done around the house.

2014 Mississauga Half Marathon

I ran the Mississauga Half last weekend, this was my third time running this race and I can say every year has felt like a completely different race.  I went in wanting to beat my time from last year, really who doesn't go into a race wanting to beat their previous time?!   I reminded myself that this year has been very different than last year.  I had some very different motivation pushing me to run my ass off last year, just having come back from the Boston Marathon had left me running for very different reasons last year.  This year I was coming back from dealing with being diagnosed with Osteoarthritis and everything that goes along with it.  So this year was a very different race than last year.

I realized the night before how much I really do love racing. I haven’t participated in a race since my DNF at Ironman last summer. Saturday, as the afternoon was turning into evening I was getting the usual butterflies and pre-race anxiety…I love it!  It makes me feel electric!   On my way to Anna’s house I had the usual race morning brain fog and drove the wrong way to her house…Anna lives 4km away from me and I couldn't remember which the best way to go was! Can you see why at Ironman I stay right next to the starting area?

Anyway, the race was the usual route, I know it and I really like it.  I struggled with the inclines after getting half way up “the big hill” at the 10k point and walked all of them after that point.  It was just too painful.  I knew with that happening beating my time wasn't going to happen but I still wanted to push and get in as fast as I could. 

During the first 10-12 k or so I was trying to keep my form in check but somewhere after the half-way point (where the pictures started) I can see my training went out the window and I was just pushing to get it finished. 

While I finished 14 minutes slower than last year I still had a great race and I can’t wait to go back next year and crush my course record!

On the knee pain front...my dream team of doctors are working on getting me in for round 2 of the injections in the next couple of weeks.  Ironman training really starts to ramp up now so the sooner the better.  

Today we are at the 101 day countdown! It's go time folks!

no words...

It was nearly a year ago that my life changed forever and this is the first time I have written about it.  What was felt, seen and thought when the chaos ensued during the Boston Marathon was different among us six, how this changed all of us is just as different.  

I have yet to find the words that truly describe what I felt and what I thought was going to happen to me that day and honestly I don't even know if they exist. So instead I say, no words can describe what I thought and what I felt that day but what I can say is, there will forever be a special place in my heart for these ladies for only we know what we experienced.